HOME WORK-
1) Info about the time period you come from- significant events, location, food, culture, style, 'in' things, 'hot topics of duscussion'. Do the Stanislavski BEFORE STORY thing.
2) What role do you play in that society?- unwanted artist/ disgraced outcast (MC)/ unwanted child (Baby)?
3) How do the issues you deal with then relate to modern day society TODAY. Does the current society still practise the same segregation (If any)?
4)What is the irony that will be seen in your character (if any)? How will you show this?
5) Go through the script and check to see-
(i) There is a constant type of voice for your character- Eg- Eng E Shen's voice
(ii) IS your characters realization caused directly/indirectly by Sarah? (It has to be)
(iii) Do you manage to tackle and unearth the mystery of life your character is dealing with?
(iv) Check if regret is seen in ALL the scenes you are in (Make sure its not too obviously stated)
I have decided to mould my character in the form of Wen Chang, a Taoist God of wisdom, drawing influences from his character as the Taoist God of Wisdom etc. Melvyn, I might need a bit of your help with it since you used to be taoist right? So... yea. The difference is that I'm not actually him but more like a representation of wisdom and eastern culture that is being lost in society. If we talk about that kind of loss, my death would have been only about 100 or so years ago when western influence started to spread. However, I'm looking further back to see if it can be further pushed back so that my age is er... more apparent. Unless of course 100 years is long enough.
1) STANISLAVSKI BEFORE STORY -
I was an entity that existed long ago but only came into real existence at about 1314 AD, during the Yuan Dynasty. I lived on as people prayed to me for wisdom in life and was appreciated, worshiped and even celebrated. I was a god. Scholars came, deliberating their many meanings of the world and of life, of how it ran and how it stops. People came to me, seeking wisdom for a better life. For a while, the only people above me were my superiors in high heaven but I was content. My people always ensured that my god-life was comfortable and assured. They needed me, they relied on me, they leaned on me.
People usually ate rice with a small arrangement of side dishes on the side. The richer you were, the more fish and meat you would get and the more elaborate your meals would be. Of course the meal would increase in size as well. Being a God, I ate the best meals. Fish, meat and on occasions, sharks fin and the like.
Then came the western gods. Gods that preached democracy, in all their self-righteousness came in and usurped my position. I thought that my people's faith would be unwavering but very quickly, it was evident that the tables had turned. As my own people learnt the ways of this new god, they realised the state of China and called for revolution. My people were slaughtered and the imperials were overthrown. Suddenly, everyone wanted more than ever, to prosper. The hunger for advancement overtook the need for wisdom and soon, people started to push me to the back of their minds. It wasn't long before I was truly dead as now, people have seem to forgotten the higher forms of wisdom and what it truly means to be wise. I was forgotten.
2) ROLE IN SOCIETY -
God of Wisdom. Revered and respected.
3) SOCIETAL ISSUES -
The loss of tradition and roots in todays world reflects a desensitized and americanized society where the ideologies and conventions of the west have become the main aim and focus for way too many in the world today. Despite the arguments of culture being emancipated, what undergoes this emancipation is the "desirable" parts of culture. Fashion, art, food. The true essence of culture is being lost. Religion, values, ethnicity. Even the extracted aspects are modified to suit western traditions. Mug is the embodiment and representation of this shift in power, being the main victim of Globalisation and its powers to repress culture and tradition.
4) IRONY -
The main irony in my character is that despite his perceived power-position over people, he in fact, relies more on people than people rely on him. A religion is only as strong as its disciples and without this support, the religion is defunct, its gods forgotten. Much like Mug. The notion of wisdom in today's society depends on people's perceptions and quest for it. Without this, wisdom is non-existent. This will be shown by my reliance on the cane as a symbol of this support that I continuously need. Without the support, I fall. I am defunct. A corpse on the floor awaiting the undertaker.
5) i) My voice is pretty consistent. The abstract approach that Mug takes to life is further supported by his subtext of his unwillingness to let go of the past. I feel that perhaps more could be said about the west and its influential power over culture and traditions in the world though. I think it was only mentioned once in the death scene and then er... forgotten.
ii) My realization is well... pretty obviously caused by Sarah who makes me realise my state of being and makes me realise how people no longer need me in life. I should just move on to life and see what I can do there instead of pinning here in purgatory for a lost past.
iii) As to what makes the west so powerful? I dont think its really dealt and solved here in the play. For my character, the play acts as a stepping stone to finding out what is so powerful about western influence. It is overcoming my inertia to find the answer for myself.
iv) 1st Scene - YES.
2nd Scene (congregation around Sarah) - Not that apparent but it is implied subtly. Which is good.
3rd Scene (Sarah and Mug Scene) - Not so much about regret here but an aspect of regret. The unwillingness to change, to move on. The depiction of a degraded and mentally unstable Mug at the beginning also stands in contrast to Mug's own belief of his power. The realization if this state thus brings about Mug's regret in the sense that he realizes how far he has really fallen. The regret for having let himself fall so far down.
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Saturday, April 3, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
Updates for Muichoo
Regret
What do I exactly regret:
I regret killing myself - especially when I've got my baby inside. I regret giving up on life when I know that I can start afresh. I regret taking up this job because I cannot find true love with this kinda job.
How do I show it:
Script. Scenes where Muichoo communicates with Baby shows how regretful she is over killing herself and her baby. In the new scene with Guak & Sarah, Muichoo can show her regret by encouraging Guak & Sarah to move on and let go of their regret?
Actions. I always look/touch/hug Baby as if she's my own baby. I behave like I'm her Mamma.
Realization
My realization:
I realized that I shouldn't be held back by my regret and should live my life again.
The 'new' thing that I want:
True love. I want to start my own family. I want a proper life. I want to be a good Mamma. I want a loving husband.
After this realization, the changes I'll go through:
I'll become more optimistic? I'll encourage others to let go of their regret (S13 with Guak & Sarah) and tell them to be brave and move on! Things doesn't change unless you do something about it.
What do I exactly regret:
I regret killing myself - especially when I've got my baby inside. I regret giving up on life when I know that I can start afresh. I regret taking up this job because I cannot find true love with this kinda job.
How do I show it:
Script. Scenes where Muichoo communicates with Baby shows how regretful she is over killing herself and her baby. In the new scene with Guak & Sarah, Muichoo can show her regret by encouraging Guak & Sarah to move on and let go of their regret?
Actions. I always look/touch/hug Baby as if she's my own baby. I behave like I'm her Mamma.
Realization
My realization:
I realized that I shouldn't be held back by my regret and should live my life again.
The 'new' thing that I want:
True love. I want to start my own family. I want a proper life. I want to be a good Mamma. I want a loving husband.
After this realization, the changes I'll go through:
I'll become more optimistic? I'll encourage others to let go of their regret (S13 with Guak & Sarah) and tell them to be brave and move on! Things doesn't change unless you do something about it.
Disability
My disability:
I need to be wearing the hospital breathing mask all the time or else I will stop breathing and have spasms. When I take it off to speak, I'll have heavy breathing and it'll only last for 1 minute (?). Can include moments where I speak too much till I'm going to have spasms.
Do you get rid of your handicap?:
Possibly. Towards the end, I can speak for a longer time without much heavy breathing. It shows I've let go of my regret that used to be holding me back.
More grotesque?:
My looks? Smudged makeup with scars of being abused. But that's not really considered as disability. Maybe I can roll my eyes up when I'm having spasms, like as if I'm "possessed" :D
My disability:
I need to be wearing the hospital breathing mask all the time or else I will stop breathing and have spasms. When I take it off to speak, I'll have heavy breathing and it'll only last for 1 minute (?). Can include moments where I speak too much till I'm going to have spasms.
Do you get rid of your handicap?:
Possibly. Towards the end, I can speak for a longer time without much heavy breathing. It shows I've let go of my regret that used to be holding me back.
More grotesque?:
My looks? Smudged makeup with scars of being abused. But that's not really considered as disability. Maybe I can roll my eyes up when I'm having spasms, like as if I'm "possessed" :D
Monday, December 28, 2009
Mug Character Analysis
My first impression on Mug: Once great God who has fallen from grace and lost his senility.
Age: 1500
Date of Death: Between 1200-1300, along with the fall of the Sri Vijaya empire.
Characteristics: Impulsive, Oblivious to his surroundings, Does things faster than his mind can process, reflects hard afterwards.
Job: God of Students sitting for exams, somewhat pessimistic.
(For the ease of understanding, I shall talk in proper english and not Mug style.)
People don't usually understand me very well as I usually don't speak in proper sentences. Whatever is coming out is what I am thinking, and what the state of my mind is like. Confused, Complicated, Distraught. Ever since the collapse of the empire that brought me here, I have been wandering without any purpose, just hoping to once again be acknowledged for my wisdom and intellect I was once known for. For 700 years I walked like a lone coyote in the desert, living worthlessly, aimlessly, tired, exhausted, forgotten. I looked around but nobody looked back. It was just... me. Then, I found something which made me feel at least a little bit wanted in this world. This fantastic, beautiful, stressful place called Singapore breeds people who need someone to pray to, play to, say to. These crucial exams allow me to be realized in the lives of these people! Alas I can be God once more!
Yet, after learning each person's habits and personalities, they forget me, and the next 60.000 people come for me to learn them, study them, and be worshipped just like how they study their books until it becomes a religion. Still, they will only forget. They cannot see me, only I can see them. They do not notice me. They do not thank me. They get the results and they leave. Does this mean I am still God? I know of a God whom people don't see but still believe in. But they don't even know me. I want people to know me like they used to. It was so long ago and I wish I could be a God that people pray and listen to again. I need to be acknowledged and not forgotten. I shall continue trying with the students. Maybe one day they will come to me and realize my greatness. I shall just wait. After all, I am God.
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MuiChoo:
I don't remember her. She never studied. I remember everyone who studied. Some of them are also dead today but most of them are still alive. All have forgotten me. I think Mui Choo, even though she didn't study, still thinks I'm a God. Maybe because of her low level of education, she thinks I am God. Does She? I don't know but at least she knows who I am and that makes me happy. If only she worshipped me and if only she understands me better. At least she has someone to love her. All the people here love her but no one bothers about me.
Baby:
Baby is nice. Because she is nice, I can be with her. She is not afraid of me unlike the rest who say I am crazy and out of my mind. She call me God! I just wish more people were like baby. I wish I was like baby. At least I will have mothers looking after me. Still, because she doesn't understand me, I cannot understand her. I can talk to her but she only listens because she doesnt understand. MuiChoo loves her very much. I just wish I was loved and worshipped too. I could give her knowledge if she wanted but no one can understand me. That's why no one can worship me.
Sarah:
Sarah needs to know that sometimes you cannot find answers. I still remember a bit from the old days and people always asked me questions. I used to think it was annoying but now I want that to happen again. Sarah also keeps asking questions but because I have answered so many questions, sometimes I cannot give the answer. Not everything has an answer. All these Singaporeans study so much for the answers that they forget how to be smart sometimes. Just like Sarah. That's why I am scared for baby because Sarah is Smart but not Wise. Baby is wise. Just not smart. It's better that way.
Death:
Oh No! I am very scared of him because too many times while walking in the desert has he come for me! All my other God friends are dead because of him. He wants to take me away but he forgets I am a God and God's live for as long as they are remembered!!! Shit... NO!!!!! I Will not Go because there is still a chance!!! People need me and Death, even though he knows the answers, can never take them away! Just because I am not needed doesn't mean I am not existent!
Gwak:
I dont know alot about Gwak/Gek. I know that she studied but not so much. She gave up because no one looks at her. Just like me. I think if Gwak and I met, we would be good friends because both of us are not recognized or appreciated. Maybe she will say I am God. Oh. But Gwak has a strange mind. She is very different from the other students. When I try to see into her brain, she is very funny. Still, gwak is stupid to kill herself because no one ever knows if the future might change. Maybe all of a sudden they will take interest in whatever she draws or paints and then she will be recognized. Stupid. Nevermind. We are both dead.
Age: 1500
Date of Death: Between 1200-1300, along with the fall of the Sri Vijaya empire.
Characteristics: Impulsive, Oblivious to his surroundings, Does things faster than his mind can process, reflects hard afterwards.
Job: God of Students sitting for exams, somewhat pessimistic.
(For the ease of understanding, I shall talk in proper english and not Mug style.)
People don't usually understand me very well as I usually don't speak in proper sentences. Whatever is coming out is what I am thinking, and what the state of my mind is like. Confused, Complicated, Distraught. Ever since the collapse of the empire that brought me here, I have been wandering without any purpose, just hoping to once again be acknowledged for my wisdom and intellect I was once known for. For 700 years I walked like a lone coyote in the desert, living worthlessly, aimlessly, tired, exhausted, forgotten. I looked around but nobody looked back. It was just... me. Then, I found something which made me feel at least a little bit wanted in this world. This fantastic, beautiful, stressful place called Singapore breeds people who need someone to pray to, play to, say to. These crucial exams allow me to be realized in the lives of these people! Alas I can be God once more!
Yet, after learning each person's habits and personalities, they forget me, and the next 60.000 people come for me to learn them, study them, and be worshipped just like how they study their books until it becomes a religion. Still, they will only forget. They cannot see me, only I can see them. They do not notice me. They do not thank me. They get the results and they leave. Does this mean I am still God? I know of a God whom people don't see but still believe in. But they don't even know me. I want people to know me like they used to. It was so long ago and I wish I could be a God that people pray and listen to again. I need to be acknowledged and not forgotten. I shall continue trying with the students. Maybe one day they will come to me and realize my greatness. I shall just wait. After all, I am God.
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MuiChoo:
I don't remember her. She never studied. I remember everyone who studied. Some of them are also dead today but most of them are still alive. All have forgotten me. I think Mui Choo, even though she didn't study, still thinks I'm a God. Maybe because of her low level of education, she thinks I am God. Does She? I don't know but at least she knows who I am and that makes me happy. If only she worshipped me and if only she understands me better. At least she has someone to love her. All the people here love her but no one bothers about me.
Baby:
Baby is nice. Because she is nice, I can be with her. She is not afraid of me unlike the rest who say I am crazy and out of my mind. She call me God! I just wish more people were like baby. I wish I was like baby. At least I will have mothers looking after me. Still, because she doesn't understand me, I cannot understand her. I can talk to her but she only listens because she doesnt understand. MuiChoo loves her very much. I just wish I was loved and worshipped too. I could give her knowledge if she wanted but no one can understand me. That's why no one can worship me.
Sarah:
Sarah needs to know that sometimes you cannot find answers. I still remember a bit from the old days and people always asked me questions. I used to think it was annoying but now I want that to happen again. Sarah also keeps asking questions but because I have answered so many questions, sometimes I cannot give the answer. Not everything has an answer. All these Singaporeans study so much for the answers that they forget how to be smart sometimes. Just like Sarah. That's why I am scared for baby because Sarah is Smart but not Wise. Baby is wise. Just not smart. It's better that way.
Death:
Oh No! I am very scared of him because too many times while walking in the desert has he come for me! All my other God friends are dead because of him. He wants to take me away but he forgets I am a God and God's live for as long as they are remembered!!! Shit... NO!!!!! I Will not Go because there is still a chance!!! People need me and Death, even though he knows the answers, can never take them away! Just because I am not needed doesn't mean I am not existent!
Gwak:
I dont know alot about Gwak/Gek. I know that she studied but not so much. She gave up because no one looks at her. Just like me. I think if Gwak and I met, we would be good friends because both of us are not recognized or appreciated. Maybe she will say I am God. Oh. But Gwak has a strange mind. She is very different from the other students. When I try to see into her brain, she is very funny. Still, gwak is stupid to kill herself because no one ever knows if the future might change. Maybe all of a sudden they will take interest in whatever she draws or paints and then she will be recognized. Stupid. Nevermind. We are both dead.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Mui Choo Character Analysis (sry for late post!)
Mui Choo
Age: 37 years old
D.O.Death: 1960s
Job: Pub waitress / Prostitute ("I work as waitress, but money also come from men. No time to marry. Some men don't mind who they sleep with.")
Obvious traits: Low educated. Simple minded / ignorant. Very Chinese-y. Hungry for love and escape (I agree with Steph) and probably, second chances.
Because of my lack of education, I've got to learn things the hard way. Only after losing my life can I learn how important life is. Only after losing my baby can I learn how to appreciate babies. In scene 6, my line "Baby come out very beautiful." shows that I've actually learned to appreciate babies and throughout the whole show, I appear as a mother figure for Baby. I regretted killing myself along with my baby. That's why I'm so nice towards Baby. I'm trying to replace my guilt with my care for Baby. And also, trying to erase that memory. As seen from scene 6, as I was explaining how babies come about to Baby, I denied taking my baby out and said that Baby's mother "make mistake only" (when I'm actually referring to myself).
Because of my lack of education, I fear many things. I'm scared of aging, I'm scared of loving and most importantly, I'm scared of my unpredictable future. That's why I died. When I got pregnant, I don't even know who baby's father was. I didn't know what to do. So all I could think of is death. Lines to show my fear: "That age, not young anymore, and you always frighten going to get old." , "I was scared of what would happen." , "I no know what to do. Daddy never come back." , "But when scared, how to think of love?" (all from Scene 13)
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Mui Choo's view about the rest:
Sarah: Hungry for answers.
I think she's a clever girl. She knows a lot about the world. That's why, I asked her to teach Baby. But sometimes, she thinks too much. People from the new generation really thinks differently. The questions that she ask, tsk, difficult to understand. Everything to her must have some logic/science behind it. She seems to be a very pessimistic person. And she's also not humorous at all. She is very straightforward and speaks very matter-of-factly. I don't understand why she tries so hard to find the meaning of life when "books are useless for the most important answers".
Guakawakaweena: Hungry for recognition.
Crazy artist, super dramatic and very much about getting attention. Her name is difficult to pronounce. I preferred her original, Gek. She talks a lot, sometimes too much. But I guess, all she wanted was attention. She even hold parties just so that people can give her the attention she wanted. Actually... she's quite pitiful. All she needed was recognition. So, even in death, she's searching for that.
Mug: Hungry for self-worth.
Another ding dong. Always talking about stuff that I totally don't understand! At least I can understand Sarah at times. Mug is just... weird. He always claims himself as god. And always counting down to I-don't-know-what. He appears anywhere everywhere anytime and every time. He seems like he's lost in his own world and is trying to find a place for himself. He's difficult to comprehend... So I don't really bother about him. Hope he gets what he wants soon.
Baby: Hungry for knowledge
Baby reminds me of my own baby. She's my only source of repenting. I enjoy taking care of her, makes me feel like I'm taking care of my own baby. And also, allowed me to have hopes that others are taking care of my baby too. Baby loves to ask a lot of questions about the world. Even though she has not experienced life, she's the one who knows the truest meaning of life. Her words are actually very eye-opening. It makes people go back to the simplest meaning of things.
Death: When's he hungry?
Scarily calm. It seems like he knows everything. Much like a 'Death God'? He's the one who brings us from life to death to... just stages. He's also very straightforward. He's somehow, emotionless. He doesn't show his feelings or rather, he doesn't even have feelings. He speaks the truth and tries to answer all our questions even though he can't always answer them fully.
Age: 37 years old
D.O.Death: 1960s
Job: Pub waitress / Prostitute ("I work as waitress, but money also come from men. No time to marry. Some men don't mind who they sleep with.")
Obvious traits: Low educated. Simple minded / ignorant. Very Chinese-y. Hungry for love and escape (I agree with Steph) and probably, second chances.
Because of my lack of education, I've got to learn things the hard way. Only after losing my life can I learn how important life is. Only after losing my baby can I learn how to appreciate babies. In scene 6, my line "Baby come out very beautiful." shows that I've actually learned to appreciate babies and throughout the whole show, I appear as a mother figure for Baby. I regretted killing myself along with my baby. That's why I'm so nice towards Baby. I'm trying to replace my guilt with my care for Baby. And also, trying to erase that memory. As seen from scene 6, as I was explaining how babies come about to Baby, I denied taking my baby out and said that Baby's mother "make mistake only" (when I'm actually referring to myself).
Because of my lack of education, I fear many things. I'm scared of aging, I'm scared of loving and most importantly, I'm scared of my unpredictable future. That's why I died. When I got pregnant, I don't even know who baby's father was. I didn't know what to do. So all I could think of is death. Lines to show my fear: "That age, not young anymore, and you always frighten going to get old." , "I was scared of what would happen." , "I no know what to do. Daddy never come back." , "But when scared, how to think of love?" (all from Scene 13)
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Mui Choo's view about the rest:
Sarah: Hungry for answers.
I think she's a clever girl. She knows a lot about the world. That's why, I asked her to teach Baby. But sometimes, she thinks too much. People from the new generation really thinks differently. The questions that she ask, tsk, difficult to understand. Everything to her must have some logic/science behind it. She seems to be a very pessimistic person. And she's also not humorous at all. She is very straightforward and speaks very matter-of-factly. I don't understand why she tries so hard to find the meaning of life when "books are useless for the most important answers".
Guakawakaweena: Hungry for recognition.
Crazy artist, super dramatic and very much about getting attention. Her name is difficult to pronounce. I preferred her original, Gek. She talks a lot, sometimes too much. But I guess, all she wanted was attention. She even hold parties just so that people can give her the attention she wanted. Actually... she's quite pitiful. All she needed was recognition. So, even in death, she's searching for that.
Mug: Hungry for self-worth.
Another ding dong. Always talking about stuff that I totally don't understand! At least I can understand Sarah at times. Mug is just... weird. He always claims himself as god. And always counting down to I-don't-know-what. He appears anywhere everywhere anytime and every time. He seems like he's lost in his own world and is trying to find a place for himself. He's difficult to comprehend... So I don't really bother about him. Hope he gets what he wants soon.
Baby: Hungry for knowledge
Baby reminds me of my own baby. She's my only source of repenting. I enjoy taking care of her, makes me feel like I'm taking care of my own baby. And also, allowed me to have hopes that others are taking care of my baby too. Baby loves to ask a lot of questions about the world. Even though she has not experienced life, she's the one who knows the truest meaning of life. Her words are actually very eye-opening. It makes people go back to the simplest meaning of things.
Death: When's he hungry?
Scarily calm. It seems like he knows everything. Much like a 'Death God'? He's the one who brings us from life to death to... just stages. He's also very straightforward. He's somehow, emotionless. He doesn't show his feelings or rather, he doesn't even have feelings. He speaks the truth and tries to answer all our questions even though he can't always answer them fully.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Guakawakaweena Analysis
HI!!!!!!!!
my name is Guakawakaweena!!! i died like, a long time ago in the girls bathroom(19 years to be precise) -also occupied by sarah- because i did not find anything in life to live for. i was crushingly disappointed with the world, my parents and especially myself because i could not achieve my dreams,- being an artist that is, thus, what is there to live for? why not try death huh? well??? WELL, look at me now! awe-inspiring isin't it?
okay, enough about all these depressing stuff, what's done is done, so what do you want to know about me?
i'm currently 17, have been 17 for a while and likely to remain so. i'm basically an energetic, bubbly, glass half full kind of girl- you wouldn't guess with the suicide huh?- and i've been told i talk too much. well, if a girl has all the time in the world, why not talk right? i'm a likable person, i would think, and i enjoy having people around me.
when i was alive, i desperately wanted to be an artist, i wanted to do something with the world, i wanted to be the centre of attention and i wanted people to appreaciate me. i was soooo sick of my life because it was just so useless, and i just had to be smart enough to... kill myself.
in this ?afterlife? limbo?, what i desire most is to live again, i'm hungry for life, for something better than this non-life and non-death, but i'm scared. i don't know what to do so i remain here, i try to remain optimistic, i was an arts student ok. so, i liven up the depressing atmosphere and i try to not dwell on the bad things.
i'm a strong person, but i have learned many lessons from my foolhardy mistake, i have learned to value life, to be appreaciative of what i have and i want to move on. oh, my real name is boon gek, by the way, but please, don't call me that, it's so unglam!
Guak's thought's about the other characters:
Sarah- well, once a science student, always a science student. i think that sarah is a good friend, a bit uptight and cranky but i kind of understand her the most. we argue a lot and she does some pretty unsavoury things but she'll always be my little sister! sarah is hungry for the meaning of life, she is never happy with simple explanations and needs a better reason to live. i think that sarah is capable of finding out what she so desires and she will be happy.
Death- OKAY. some people are easy to read, and let me tell, it's not death. he freaks me out sometimes, because he just seems so all knowing and must more sophisticated than me. but, i think that death is quite encouraging. he dosen't force us to do something that we don't want to do and i guess he's a person i can never figure out. maybe i can draw a his portrait, he seems to be eating apples all the time tho...
Baby- to my eyes, baby is lucky and unlucky at the same time. she has not experienced life and it's atrocities but, it was not her choice to be here and also, she has not had the chance to live. i want baby to know what it's like to live and be. but, i think that baby is the most cutest and perceptive of all of us, maybe because she is the most innocent. i don;t mind showing baby around in the real world.
Mui Choo- mui choo is the closest thing to a mother that i can identify with, she has had a tragic past and an untimely death. i think out of all of us, she is the one who most values lfe, she understands that when one dies, it not only affects herself, but her baby too. she had to learn that lesson the hard way though. i think mui choo has the strongest will power and she deserves much better than this. i wish her all the best =)
Mug- OMG! can someone make sense of this guy, god, whatever. i duess i can understand some of his gibberish but god, get a life man. seriously. but, i kinda understand where he's coming from, he has been worshipped and now, forgotten, heck, that's enough to make anyone nuts. Mug, a good advice is to not be scared to more on and get a new life.
Afiqah
my name is Guakawakaweena!!! i died like, a long time ago in the girls bathroom(19 years to be precise) -also occupied by sarah- because i did not find anything in life to live for. i was crushingly disappointed with the world, my parents and especially myself because i could not achieve my dreams,- being an artist that is, thus, what is there to live for? why not try death huh? well??? WELL, look at me now! awe-inspiring isin't it?
okay, enough about all these depressing stuff, what's done is done, so what do you want to know about me?
i'm currently 17, have been 17 for a while and likely to remain so. i'm basically an energetic, bubbly, glass half full kind of girl- you wouldn't guess with the suicide huh?- and i've been told i talk too much. well, if a girl has all the time in the world, why not talk right? i'm a likable person, i would think, and i enjoy having people around me.
when i was alive, i desperately wanted to be an artist, i wanted to do something with the world, i wanted to be the centre of attention and i wanted people to appreaciate me. i was soooo sick of my life because it was just so useless, and i just had to be smart enough to... kill myself.
in this ?afterlife? limbo?, what i desire most is to live again, i'm hungry for life, for something better than this non-life and non-death, but i'm scared. i don't know what to do so i remain here, i try to remain optimistic, i was an arts student ok. so, i liven up the depressing atmosphere and i try to not dwell on the bad things.
i'm a strong person, but i have learned many lessons from my foolhardy mistake, i have learned to value life, to be appreaciative of what i have and i want to move on. oh, my real name is boon gek, by the way, but please, don't call me that, it's so unglam!
Guak's thought's about the other characters:
Sarah- well, once a science student, always a science student. i think that sarah is a good friend, a bit uptight and cranky but i kind of understand her the most. we argue a lot and she does some pretty unsavoury things but she'll always be my little sister! sarah is hungry for the meaning of life, she is never happy with simple explanations and needs a better reason to live. i think that sarah is capable of finding out what she so desires and she will be happy.
Death- OKAY. some people are easy to read, and let me tell, it's not death. he freaks me out sometimes, because he just seems so all knowing and must more sophisticated than me. but, i think that death is quite encouraging. he dosen't force us to do something that we don't want to do and i guess he's a person i can never figure out. maybe i can draw a his portrait, he seems to be eating apples all the time tho...
Baby- to my eyes, baby is lucky and unlucky at the same time. she has not experienced life and it's atrocities but, it was not her choice to be here and also, she has not had the chance to live. i want baby to know what it's like to live and be. but, i think that baby is the most cutest and perceptive of all of us, maybe because she is the most innocent. i don;t mind showing baby around in the real world.
Mui Choo- mui choo is the closest thing to a mother that i can identify with, she has had a tragic past and an untimely death. i think out of all of us, she is the one who most values lfe, she understands that when one dies, it not only affects herself, but her baby too. she had to learn that lesson the hard way though. i think mui choo has the strongest will power and she deserves much better than this. i wish her all the best =)
Mug- OMG! can someone make sense of this guy, god, whatever. i duess i can understand some of his gibberish but god, get a life man. seriously. but, i kinda understand where he's coming from, he has been worshipped and now, forgotten, heck, that's enough to make anyone nuts. Mug, a good advice is to not be scared to more on and get a new life.
Afiqah
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Character Analysis - Sarah
m Sarah, the 'science student' as Gwak puts it. But i have to agree with her, the label holds true. I love analysis and finding answers to things, thats what made me the brightest student in class, put also caused me to die. Asking questions is my forte! I always want to know why things are, how they came about, what will happen to them eventually. Soon i began asking questions about existence, mans purpose on earth, creation, purpose, fulfillement, love, emotion, feeling. But i never could find the answers to them. Not knowing all that made me feel uneasy. How would i know if i was doing the right thing with my life if i didnt know what i was suppose to be doing in the first place? I felt small, useless, insignificant, purposeless and just so tired after asking all those questions. My life slowly detereorated. First my gade, then my parents, freinds, everything was gone because i just couldnt BE because i didnt know what i was supposed to BE. It was such a burden that i decided that i would do myself a favour and just kill myself. What came after life was always a mystery to me, so i decided that i would go find out.
But damn that man up there (if there is one) just could NOT let me die in peace! First i had to confront myslef ONCE again with those questions that had never gotten anwered because without knowing them how was i suppose to choose what came next? Why cant they just choose people to send to either heaven and hell! Talk about democracy and 'choices that are now available to modern society'! Well i have found what the human races's existance is all about and that we end up being insignificant in the end and there is nothing we can do about it. We have no set purpose, we just are... until one day were not anymore. Ill never be able to find the answers, and even if i do how can i varify them? Its an endless circle, so i guess ill stop it all now. Spare myself the hurt and the pain and distress. Goodbye you all!
Gwak- She is interesting as all art students are. I always found them weird, but she showed me an all new level! The energy, the talk, the bubbly personality! ARGH!! But well i guess i do feel for her. She cant really analysde stuff like me, so her approach to the pain is just ignoring it and creating a sort of protective bubble that will keep her happy and amused. When she finally admitted that she was aware of reality it shocked me a bit but im glad that she has decided to take control of the 'situation' and finally make a decision. She's strong, she'll be alright. Don't change to much Gwak!
Baby- I love that kid, I do. But teaching her is sometimes sop difficult because she asks the questions that i used to when i was little. I hate myslef for not being able to give her better answers, insetad i have to trepeat the ones that i got then. All i can do is pass on knowledge, things that i have read and learnt. But the wisdom stil hasnt come to me and i hope that baby will grow up and answer the questions i never could. I wish you all the best Baby.
Mui Choo- She's kind and loving and very motherly. I can see the pain that she has gone through in the past, and i do hope that she will find what she is looking for. She may not know as much as i do or analyze and question things. But the one thing she has that i dont think i ever will is the ability to love unconditionally and to follow her heart, not her head. I admire you Mui Choo.
Mug- Well what can i say. I never knew there was a God like him but i guess he was the one i prayed to, the God of Wisdom. Or not... come to think of it, i had always prayed for knowledge, for the answers. I had never prayed for wisdom. This is the disease of my generation. The only way we know to solve our problems is to look for answers, not other ways to tackle the situation. I do feel sorry for the old guy it wasnt his fault that people forgot about him. He is strange in a way but then so is wisdom. If only people would wake up from the illusions of knowledge! I'm sorry mugg.
Death- What can i say. He's just always THERE. He neither helps us nor probes us for answers. He just stands and watches. I do understand that he cant help us but sometimes i just wish he would! BEcause he is the person with the most 'experience' in purgatory! He cant even answer the questions i have about what is beyond this place. Or maybe he just doenst want to. Well whatever it is, at least he can help me get to the place that i want to go. Thank you death.
-Priscilla
But damn that man up there (if there is one) just could NOT let me die in peace! First i had to confront myslef ONCE again with those questions that had never gotten anwered because without knowing them how was i suppose to choose what came next? Why cant they just choose people to send to either heaven and hell! Talk about democracy and 'choices that are now available to modern society'! Well i have found what the human races's existance is all about and that we end up being insignificant in the end and there is nothing we can do about it. We have no set purpose, we just are... until one day were not anymore. Ill never be able to find the answers, and even if i do how can i varify them? Its an endless circle, so i guess ill stop it all now. Spare myself the hurt and the pain and distress. Goodbye you all!
Gwak- She is interesting as all art students are. I always found them weird, but she showed me an all new level! The energy, the talk, the bubbly personality! ARGH!! But well i guess i do feel for her. She cant really analysde stuff like me, so her approach to the pain is just ignoring it and creating a sort of protective bubble that will keep her happy and amused. When she finally admitted that she was aware of reality it shocked me a bit but im glad that she has decided to take control of the 'situation' and finally make a decision. She's strong, she'll be alright. Don't change to much Gwak!
Baby- I love that kid, I do. But teaching her is sometimes sop difficult because she asks the questions that i used to when i was little. I hate myslef for not being able to give her better answers, insetad i have to trepeat the ones that i got then. All i can do is pass on knowledge, things that i have read and learnt. But the wisdom stil hasnt come to me and i hope that baby will grow up and answer the questions i never could. I wish you all the best Baby.
Mui Choo- She's kind and loving and very motherly. I can see the pain that she has gone through in the past, and i do hope that she will find what she is looking for. She may not know as much as i do or analyze and question things. But the one thing she has that i dont think i ever will is the ability to love unconditionally and to follow her heart, not her head. I admire you Mui Choo.
Mug- Well what can i say. I never knew there was a God like him but i guess he was the one i prayed to, the God of Wisdom. Or not... come to think of it, i had always prayed for knowledge, for the answers. I had never prayed for wisdom. This is the disease of my generation. The only way we know to solve our problems is to look for answers, not other ways to tackle the situation. I do feel sorry for the old guy it wasnt his fault that people forgot about him. He is strange in a way but then so is wisdom. If only people would wake up from the illusions of knowledge! I'm sorry mugg.
Death- What can i say. He's just always THERE. He neither helps us nor probes us for answers. He just stands and watches. I do understand that he cant help us but sometimes i just wish he would! BEcause he is the person with the most 'experience' in purgatory! He cant even answer the questions i have about what is beyond this place. Or maybe he just doenst want to. Well whatever it is, at least he can help me get to the place that i want to go. Thank you death.
-Priscilla
Monday, December 7, 2009
Baby
Function of Character
In relation to DV, I have never experienced life before so I appreciate and want it so badly because I have lost it due to circumstance. Towards logical answers, I ask questions. Towards questions people try to logically solve, I give the most simplest answer. And I guess the simplest answers are the correct ones. My logic goes in line with fairytales, not with books.
My take on each character
Sarah - found on P52. I sincerely want to learn from her, because she seems very knowledgeable. But a lot of things she says just does not make sense to me.
Mui Choo - She is my mum. I seek her for motherly love because I have never experienced it before. She takes care of me and answers my questions. I find it shocking how she killed herself and baby because I thought she loved baby. But she said she was really scared to the point where she forgot to love. I cannot understand but I accept it as it is.
Death - He took me to where I am now. He is quite kind. He is quite scary too. He just sits there and waits for us to make a decision on where to go so he can bring us.
Mug- He gets into nervous fits/ fits in general. Even though I do not know why he is like that, I know he is feeling bad and frustrated inside. So I comfort him sometimes.
In relation to DV, I have never experienced life before so I appreciate and want it so badly because I have lost it due to circumstance. Towards logical answers, I ask questions. Towards questions people try to logically solve, I give the most simplest answer. And I guess the simplest answers are the correct ones. My logic goes in line with fairytales, not with books.
My take on each character
Sarah - found on P52. I sincerely want to learn from her, because she seems very knowledgeable. But a lot of things she says just does not make sense to me.
Mui Choo - She is my mum. I seek her for motherly love because I have never experienced it before. She takes care of me and answers my questions. I find it shocking how she killed herself and baby because I thought she loved baby. But she said she was really scared to the point where she forgot to love. I cannot understand but I accept it as it is.
Death - He took me to where I am now. He is quite kind. He is quite scary too. He just sits there and waits for us to make a decision on where to go so he can bring us.
Mug- He gets into nervous fits/ fits in general. Even though I do not know why he is like that, I know he is feeling bad and frustrated inside. So I comfort him sometimes.
Character Analysis - Death
Function/Role
I am the ferry for the souls of the departed. After someone dies, I will bring their soul to purgatory, a place that exists in between heaven and hell. There, I will be watching these souls from a very objective point of view, as they decide where they would like to go. I then have the power to bring them to these places namely heaven, hell, reincarnation or even to cease to exist. Until then, I will not influence their decision in any way whatsoever, but just act as an observer.
My take on each character
Sarah - Having seen many school girls commit suicide over the years, I was not surprised to meet Sarah. However, unlike many others, Sarah does not resign herself to her death after she dies, but rather continues to try to find answers. Also ironically, the very reason she killed herself. I am not surprised by her final decision to cease to exist because ultimately, it is the only solution to her problems.
Baby - A sad case I must say. But she has indeed broadened my perspectives. Like all children, she possesses this immense curiosity that sometimes can get on my nerves. (Imagine someone asking Why? continuously.) However, this very innocence of baby has allowed the situations of life to be painted quite clearly and simply. To me, Baby deconstructs complicated situations and provides an alternative perspective on a matter.
Gwakawakaweena - Her name is so long that I just call her Gwak. She talks too much. I mean seriously. Shut up. To me, her lack of success in becoming an artist, leading to her suicide, shows others the stamp that society places on the arts. She is the one that gets Sarah to open up and always try to get all the other souls together. To me, she is the one that values life the most, hence her decision to reincarnate.
Mui Choo - She plays the motherly role to all the other souls. I find it amusing how she always tries to answer Baby's questions but eventually fails to do so because of her own lack of knowledge of the world. I can tell that she craves for love and affection very much, and thus tries to show and get that from Baby. She is also trying to come to terms with the fact that she killed her own baby by commiting suicide. Something that I find mildly sad.
Mug - The old god of wisdom that speaks in a way that only those with real wisdom can understand. It is very apparent to me that he craves recognition for his worth as a god, and no matter how hard I try to tell him that times have changed, it doesn't get through to him. Personally, I feel that a bit of wisdom is still needed now and then, and its sad how society is now just relying on knowledge alone. Mug. Even if nobody wants you, you'll still have me.
I am the ferry for the souls of the departed. After someone dies, I will bring their soul to purgatory, a place that exists in between heaven and hell. There, I will be watching these souls from a very objective point of view, as they decide where they would like to go. I then have the power to bring them to these places namely heaven, hell, reincarnation or even to cease to exist. Until then, I will not influence their decision in any way whatsoever, but just act as an observer.
My take on each character
Sarah - Having seen many school girls commit suicide over the years, I was not surprised to meet Sarah. However, unlike many others, Sarah does not resign herself to her death after she dies, but rather continues to try to find answers. Also ironically, the very reason she killed herself. I am not surprised by her final decision to cease to exist because ultimately, it is the only solution to her problems.
Baby - A sad case I must say. But she has indeed broadened my perspectives. Like all children, she possesses this immense curiosity that sometimes can get on my nerves. (Imagine someone asking Why? continuously.) However, this very innocence of baby has allowed the situations of life to be painted quite clearly and simply. To me, Baby deconstructs complicated situations and provides an alternative perspective on a matter.
Gwakawakaweena - Her name is so long that I just call her Gwak. She talks too much. I mean seriously. Shut up. To me, her lack of success in becoming an artist, leading to her suicide, shows others the stamp that society places on the arts. She is the one that gets Sarah to open up and always try to get all the other souls together. To me, she is the one that values life the most, hence her decision to reincarnate.
Mui Choo - She plays the motherly role to all the other souls. I find it amusing how she always tries to answer Baby's questions but eventually fails to do so because of her own lack of knowledge of the world. I can tell that she craves for love and affection very much, and thus tries to show and get that from Baby. She is also trying to come to terms with the fact that she killed her own baby by commiting suicide. Something that I find mildly sad.
Mug - The old god of wisdom that speaks in a way that only those with real wisdom can understand. It is very apparent to me that he craves recognition for his worth as a god, and no matter how hard I try to tell him that times have changed, it doesn't get through to him. Personally, I feel that a bit of wisdom is still needed now and then, and its sad how society is now just relying on knowledge alone. Mug. Even if nobody wants you, you'll still have me.
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