Guakawakaweena Analysis

HI!!!!!!!!
my name is Guakawakaweena!!! i died like, a long time ago in the girls bathroom(19 years to be precise) -also occupied by sarah- because i did not find anything in life to live for. i was crushingly disappointed with the world, my parents and especially myself because i could not achieve my dreams,- being an artist that is, thus, what is there to live for? why not try death huh? well??? WELL, look at me now! awe-inspiring isin't it?

okay, enough about all these depressing stuff, what's done is done, so what do you want to know about me?

i'm currently 17, have been 17 for a while and likely to remain so. i'm basically an energetic, bubbly, glass half full kind of girl- you wouldn't guess with the suicide huh?- and i've been told i talk too much. well, if a girl has all the time in the world, why not talk right? i'm a likable person, i would think, and i enjoy having people around me.

when i was alive, i desperately wanted to be an artist, i wanted to do something with the world, i wanted to be the centre of attention and i wanted people to appreaciate me. i was soooo sick of my life because it was just so useless, and i just had to be smart enough to... kill myself.

in this ?afterlife? limbo?, what i desire most is to live again, i'm hungry for life, for something better than this non-life and non-death, but i'm scared. i don't know what to do so i remain here, i try to remain optimistic, i was an arts student ok. so, i liven up the depressing atmosphere and i try to not dwell on the bad things.

i'm a strong person, but i have learned many lessons from my foolhardy mistake, i have learned to value life, to be appreaciative of what i have and i want to move on. oh, my real name is boon gek, by the way, but please, don't call me that, it's so unglam!

Guak's thought's about the other characters:

Sarah- well, once a science student, always a science student. i think that sarah is a good friend, a bit uptight and cranky but i kind of understand her the most. we argue a lot and she does some pretty unsavoury things but she'll always be my little sister! sarah is hungry for the meaning of life, she is never happy with simple explanations and needs a better reason to live. i think that sarah is capable of finding out what she so desires and she will be happy.

Death- OKAY. some people are easy to read, and let me tell, it's not death. he freaks me out sometimes, because he just seems so all knowing and must more sophisticated than me. but, i think that death is quite encouraging. he dosen't force us to do something that we don't want to do and i guess he's a person i can never figure out. maybe i can draw a his portrait, he seems to be eating apples all the time tho...

Baby- to my eyes, baby is lucky and unlucky at the same time. she has not experienced life and it's atrocities but, it was not her choice to be here and also, she has not had the chance to live. i want baby to know what it's like to live and be. but, i think that baby is the most cutest and perceptive of all of us, maybe because she is the most innocent. i don;t mind showing baby around in the real world.

Mui Choo- mui choo is the closest thing to a mother that i can identify with, she has had a tragic past and an untimely death. i think out of all of us, she is the one who most values lfe, she understands that when one dies, it not only affects herself, but her baby too. she had to learn that lesson the hard way though. i think mui choo has the strongest will power and she deserves much better than this. i wish her all the best =)

Mug- OMG! can someone make sense of this guy, god, whatever. i duess i can understand some of his gibberish but god, get a life man. seriously. but, i kinda understand where he's coming from, he has been worshipped and now, forgotten, heck, that's enough to make anyone nuts. Mug, a good advice is to not be scared to more on and get a new life.

Afiqah