Character Analysis - Sarah

m Sarah, the 'science student' as Gwak puts it. But i have to agree with her, the label holds true. I love analysis and finding answers to things, thats what made me the brightest student in class, put also caused me to die. Asking questions is my forte! I always want to know why things are, how they came about, what will happen to them eventually. Soon i began asking questions about existence, mans purpose on earth, creation, purpose, fulfillement, love, emotion, feeling. But i never could find the answers to them. Not knowing all that made me feel uneasy. How would i know if i was doing the right thing with my life if i didnt know what i was suppose to be doing in the first place? I felt small, useless, insignificant, purposeless and just so tired after asking all those questions. My life slowly detereorated. First my gade, then my parents, freinds, everything was gone because i just couldnt BE because i didnt know what i was supposed to BE. It was such a burden that i decided that i would do myself a favour and just kill myself. What came after life was always a mystery to me, so i decided that i would go find out.

But damn that man up there (if there is one) just could NOT let me die in peace! First i had to confront myslef ONCE again with those questions that had never gotten anwered because without knowing them how was i suppose to choose what came next? Why cant they just choose people to send to either heaven and hell! Talk about democracy and 'choices that are now available to modern society'! Well i have found what the human races's existance is all about and that we end up being insignificant in the end and there is nothing we can do about it. We have no set purpose, we just are... until one day were not anymore. Ill never be able to find the answers, and even if i do how can i varify them? Its an endless circle, so i guess ill stop it all now. Spare myself the hurt and the pain and distress. Goodbye you all!

Gwak- She is interesting as all art students are. I always found them weird, but she showed me an all new level! The energy, the talk, the bubbly personality! ARGH!! But well i guess i do feel for her. She cant really analysde stuff like me, so her approach to the pain is just ignoring it and creating a sort of protective bubble that will keep her happy and amused. When she finally admitted that she was aware of reality it shocked me a bit but im glad that she has decided to take control of the 'situation' and finally make a decision. She's strong, she'll be alright. Don't change to much Gwak!

Baby- I love that kid, I do. But teaching her is sometimes sop difficult because she asks the questions that i used to when i was little. I hate myslef for not being able to give her better answers, insetad i have to trepeat the ones that i got then. All i can do is pass on knowledge, things that i have read and learnt. But the wisdom stil hasnt come to me and i hope that baby will grow up and answer the questions i never could. I wish you all the best Baby.

Mui Choo- She's kind and loving and very motherly. I can see the pain that she has gone through in the past, and i do hope that she will find what she is looking for. She may not know as much as i do or analyze and question things. But the one thing she has that i dont think i ever will is the ability to love unconditionally and to follow her heart, not her head. I admire you Mui Choo.

Mug- Well what can i say. I never knew there was a God like him but i guess he was the one i prayed to, the God of Wisdom. Or not... come to think of it, i had always prayed for knowledge, for the answers. I had never prayed for wisdom. This is the disease of my generation. The only way we know to solve our problems is to look for answers, not other ways to tackle the situation. I do feel sorry for the old guy it wasnt his fault that people forgot about him. He is strange in a way but then so is wisdom. If only people would wake up from the illusions of knowledge! I'm sorry mugg.

Death- What can i say. He's just always THERE. He neither helps us nor probes us for answers. He just stands and watches. I do understand that he cant help us but sometimes i just wish he would! BEcause he is the person with the most 'experience' in purgatory! He cant even answer the questions i have about what is beyond this place. Or maybe he just doenst want to. Well whatever it is, at least he can help me get to the place that i want to go. Thank you death.

-Priscilla